A Change of Gears


July 7th, 2016. A good energy day.

I started this blog years ago to recount the daily going ons of an aspiring author raising three kids. I haven’t posted for awhile – I’ve been writing book after book. But tonight I’m changing gears. I’ve got a few new topics to write about. It’ll keep me sane.

The kids are great. The boys are in college. The girl is starting eighth grade. She’ll be in high school soon. But I’m getting off topic.

On June 1st, I had my right thyroid removed. There was a nearly 2cm nodule along with a bunch of little ones. The biopsy on the large one was benign.

One of the little ones was not. One was cancerous.

Since they my left thyroid has stopped functioning. I’ve been on thyroid meds for a little over a week. It’s been hell.

So why am I writing this? Because I’m tired of hurting. I’m tired of being angry. I want to be happy again. I can’t get my doctor to talk to me (my surgeon and family doctor are awesome though). I don’t want to constantly vent to my friends and family. Writing is my outlet. 

So here is my intro. Stay tuned for more.

My name is Tricia. I have cancer.

#thyroidcancer #cancer #thyroid #lookingforhope

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End of an era

So – it’s over.  At 2:45 this afternoon, Jake finished high school.

He left this morning with camera in tow insisting there would be pictures.  I tried all day to text chat him wondering how the day went.  He never responded.  I figured he was mad at me because I reinforced the idea that he ask this girl he has an insane crush on to the movies.  What could he lose?

Finally at 3:00, fifteen minutes after the moment came and went, I called him.

I found out the reason he didn’t text was that his phone was close to dead (and we’re talking on it???) and it was a busy day.  Day went well.  There were some tear inducing moments.  He took 30 pictures.  The school paper misspelled his name and has him going to the wrong college.

And the girl?  Just as he worked the nerve to ask her the alarm went off for a fire drill.  (How sad!)  He thinks he might text her later.

Then he asked if he could hang up and get back to his basketball game.

The ceremony is tomorrow night.  I think it will be a recap of his day…take a few pictures.  Probably a few things misspelled (hopefully not the diploma!).  Maybe a date with the crush girl (not at the ceremony of course).  And a few tear inducing moments (especially for Mama).

Back from the Land of the Dead

I am happy to say I’m back from the dead.  Or at least it felt like I had died.  At least a dozen times.

A week ago yesterday I started the day stressed – alot of drama over The Beast (Jake’s car).  I was pretty much angry at everyone.  But noon, my skin on my neck and scalp started to tingle.  Then it started to burn.  It wasn’t just any burn.  It felt like a legion of fire ants marching under my skin x 10.  The muscles in my neck started to ache.  Then, as I tried to eat my lunch it took two swallows to get my yogurt down.

Thinking I was having an allergic reaction to something (even though I’m not allergic to anything), I made an immediate appointment to see my doctor.  By the time I got to the doctor I could add dizzy to the list of symptoms.  Fortunately it wasn’t an allergic reaction.

It was shingles.

I wouldn’t wish shingles on my worst enemy.

I was given three prescriptions – an antibiotic, meds for chicken pox (which shingles are but the adult version), and prednisone.  I nearly passed out at the store as I waited at the pharmacy for over an hour to get my medication.  Then it was home and off to bed…or at least as close to off to bed as a wife and mother of three gets.  I attempted to go to work the next day and was sent promptly home partially due to fear of catching what I had (I wasn’t contagious) – and partially because I looked something close to death warmed over.

At it’s worst I fought with chills and fever all at the same time.  My muscles ached.  I was constantly tired.  It took three days before I could swallow normal.  And until just a day or two ago it felt as if a low level electric current was running through my muscles.

 My family, who were  some of the causes of my stress, have been angels.  They’ve cooked, they’ve cleaned, they’ve given extra hugs and kisses and cuddles (even when it hurt to cuddle – but it’s the thought that counts!).  The hubby has gotten the car for me, taken chairs to track meets so I can rest and kept the house in line.  He’s been the best.

I still have muscle aches and am unnormally tired.  But it’s nice to feel alive again. 🙂

Girls Night!

Last night the boys were at a track meet (new personal bests for both!!  Jake threw 129’2″ and Jon shave his 400 low hurdle by a second to a new time of 1:12 – very happy proud mom here!) and Brian had to work.  It left Sissy and I to our own devices.

First we dutifully went to track practice.  I felt bad I had to drag her along.  But then I realized that she has come to love practice.  She was very excited to go.  She even asked that she starts practice throwing the eight pound shot since it makes the six pound shot feel lighter.  That’s my he-girl!

Then…we snuck off to Parlor City for ice cream and funnel cakes to celebrate a great practice, the brosephs (Alex’s term for her brothers) new PRs and well…girls night!

Then we went home to continue the celebration with bowls of maccaroni and cheese, some WWE (yes, we girls love WWE) and a few rounds of…

She beat me twice.  I now understand why her brothers won’t play her anymore.  Chutes and Ladders shark is what she is.

We were glad to see the guys when they got home.  But it was nice to have a night just my girl and me.

Coming to a Conclusion

Being a fledging author (along with mom/wife/employee/coach/etc, etc, etc) I’ve been studying the trends that work for other top selling authors.  The two trends I have been noticing for indie authors like me?  One is podcasts.  Right now with the end of the high school track season – and of course more than that the impending graduation at the end of next month – beginning podcasting isn’t a great idea.  Table that idea for summer…maybe the end of club season.

The other trend I have noticed?  Blogging portions of the novel for others to read as I have already done with Woodcutter.  I was sold on this idea with Woodcutter so…I am going to do it again!

On the other blog I have, http://insidethiswritersmind.wordpress.com/, I am going to post my new novel as a serial novel.  I hope all my friends who visit this blog will stop by and take a gander at my new story!

Good-bye Mr. Coffee

This weekend I lost a vital part of my day.

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With my tightly packed schedule I can’t do it without caffeine.  My coffee maker and my tea kettle are my favorite appliances in the house.
I woke up Sunday morning to find my coffee oddly cold.  I thought I put too many ice cubes in it (I needed a caffeine boost FAST). 
I figured out later when I tried to warm up the leftovers for a cup of Irish Coffee that it no longer heated the pot.  No worries – I always have the microwave!
Then yesterday it wouldn’t brew at all.  It just sadly blinked “12:00” at me.  I rushed to work early so I could stop for a cup on the way.
I tried using my espresso maker this morning.  It wasn’t bad – but not the same thing.
Brian said we’re going to get a new coffee maker tonight.  I guess I must be ugly without caffeine.   Until then I will try to fill the void…probably with Starbucks or Coffeesmiths.

A Busy Day in Our House

It’s Saturday and I’m up and sitting in a gymnasium.  Alex is back in volleyball and happy as a lark.
Brian and the boys are…guess where??…at a track meet.  Jake throws.  Brian and Jon are helping since it’s our school’s meet.
Then it’s time for our walk.  I am wearing my “Senior Mom” football t-shirt since our throwing t-shirts haven’t arrived (that was a fiasco! ).  At noon we walk across the track for Senior Day.
Along with the day job, publishing my books, track and field, MORE track and field and just being a mom I’m trying to remember to get graduation things done.  It’s not been easy.  Fortunately the surly 18 year old keeps reminding me.  Good thing too…

Easter 2012 Recap

So Easter has come and gone in our in our house.  And like normal it was chaos.
We woke up at 5:45 am for sunrise service…to find out that the dress we bought for Alex didn’t fit.  I hate it when stores are open on holidays but I was certainly thankful for Walmart.  We found one that was a little big instead of too little.
We missed sunrise service but made it for breakfast (of course!) and then second service.  And then brunch.  And being WAY too full a nap.
My car got an unconventional bath –

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courtesy of the daughter, niece, nephew and there new bubble guns.
And I got myself an awesome Easter gift…

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I love my hair so much better short but it was a little shock to the hubby who was working when I did it.
All in all not a bad weekend.  This weekend it’s Senior Day for the high school track and field team.  Time for another trip down the track with Jake – we’ve already done one for football.  Hopefully it doesn’t rain.

Something new to my blog

So…I changed the name to my blog.  I figured the new name encompassed my life as a mom/wife/fledging author/worker bee/mean coach than SuperMom did.  And I like the phrase “Herding Cats”.  Having two cats, Truffles and Dante, as members of my family I certainly understand the concept.  And the mental thought makes me giggle.

 

Angry Teens…ergh…Birds I mean

I’ve lost my middle child.

Angry Birds Space released yesterday.  In my family this is an epic event.  I am proud to say I was the first to download it and play it.  I beat probably twelve levels.

My middle child, Jon (the computer geek/track athlete), spent most of the evening venting that he had to delete things of his ITouch to download it.  Brian (the hubby) jokingly told him it was time to sell the ITouch.  I think it was actually an offer to help him upgrade to one with more memory.  Jon didn’t appreciate his dad’s humor.

 Jon just wanted to play Angry Birds Space.  He’s been talking about the release of this game since he heard about it.  He’s beaten all the previous versions at least ten million times and can tell you where every treasure or bonus is.  He is our personal go to when we can’t beat a level.

He has a slight video game obsession.  We swore for the longest time his Nintendo DS was permanently attached to the end of his arm.  It can’t be true since he was able to switch his DS with his new Nintendo 3DS with ease.  And he can interchange that with the ITouch…and occasionally the Wii…and sometimes his brother’s XBox when Jake isn’t looking.

And when he has a new game to play he gets very irritated if you bother him about trivial things like dinner – or bed – or track practice – or school (gasp!).

So, for the next two weeks I have officially lost my fourteen-year-old.    I look forward to having him back to himself – pleasant, happy – and able to help me beat levels in my own Angry Birds Space game.